Seeing Julia

Synopsis 

Julia Hamilton was intent on building a life with Evan, looking forward instead of back and seemingly Evan gave her the world and a child. But then, he's tragically killed in a car accident. Julia's been in the after before and she knows this heartbreak too well and believes that death abducts the dying, but grief steals from those left behind. 

Desperate. Despondent. Julia questions her ability to really start over again. At Evan's funeral, she consumes equal parts of pain killers and martinis in order to escape the grief for a while. Then, she meets Jake Winston, Evan's best friend from Yale, which leads to an unforeseen connection that saves her life, but leaves her questioning everything else. 

Now, she battles guilt over Jake, grief over Evan, and questions from everyone. She must convince her psychiatrist that she wasn't trying to harm herself and answer his questions as to why she took the pills, just how perfect her marriage to Evan really was, and if she has really dealt with her past. From her close friends, she must answer their endless probing as to how she's really coping and what is she going to do with her life now. In the end, Julia must find the answers for herself-- confront her past, discover the truth about her marriage to Evan, and ultimately see herself, before she can see anyone else and find love again. 

Review 

Seeing Julia has me right from the first chapter. I loved the characters (all of them) they were all so realistic, there is no farce, they weren't perfect but they were amazing. Julia has been through so much ever since she was young and she lost so many people. She a very young widow with she young child battling with her grief and what she finds out after. Will she find love? Will she ever have a normal life? Will she be able to come out her grieving shell and become a mother to her child? Will she be able to prove to herself that she is fine? Or will she keep saying absolutely and hide her feelings, her fear and from herself?

They are so many questions but will she find the answers to them, than find out by reading Seeing Julia you won't regret it. It stupendously written and it flows just perfectly. Am I ever glad that I stumbled across from this, hell yeah! 

My Thoughts

This book actually teaches so much the title SEEING JULIA practically tells you the basic meaning sometimes you will see the same thing over and over again but do you really see it. Do you truly know who or what your seeing? Do you really know your friends, someone you keep meeting but pushing that someone away. Julia wanted some to really see her what killed her was the people who knew her died besides her friends who held her hand and helped her when she needed them the most. 

 So after reading this book I wrote a poem that just describes Julia and what she feels. 

Inner Demons

Passing through each day 
Blindly doing what needs to be done
Mechanically 
Smiling a fake smile 
Each time someone asks me 
Am I okay 
I reply with the brightest
fake sunny smile
ABSOLUTELY
Nothing is wrong
I am keeping it together
No one who knew me caught on
To message I had
Which was NO
I am not okay
I have to keep myself tact
If I break down
I will lose what little I have
I am waiting for someone to
See me
Who I really am
My imperfections
My fears
And still stay with me
FOREVER

A song that I was listening to while I was reading Seeing Julia it just felt right so here it is:

My verdict? 5 billion gazillion stars in the galaxy

Now I will go back and re-read my favorite parts, stick around for my favorite quotes. 

Callum & Harper

Synopsis 

Life sucks for orphans Callum Tate and Harper Bailey. 

Kicked out of their foster homes because they suffer the 'eighteen disease' with nothing but a hundred dollar check from the government and a pat on the back, they're forced to rely on a system that failed them miserably. 

So they sit. They sit inside Social Services, waiting for their social workers to call their names and offer them the miracle they know will never come but they sit anyway because they have nowhere else to go, no other options on their very literal and figurative empty plates.

But as they sit, they notice the other. Although captivated, they each come to the conclusion that life is complicated enough without throwing in a boiling tension that can't ever be acted upon because they're both too busy thinking about where their next meal will come from but when their names are called and both are placed on a year long waiting list for permanent housing, suddenly relying on each other seems like a very viable plan B. 

And, oh, how lovely Plan B's can be. 

Well, except for the psycho from Harper's past that haunts her and, oh, yeah, there's the little issue that neither of them knows they're in love with the other. 

Needless to say, Callum & Harper's life just got a bit more complicated.

“One day, you and I are gonna’ wake up and be alright. Maybe not today, maybe not tomorrow but one day. One day. I promise you.” - Callum Tate

Review

Amazing, mind-blowing AND stupendous book EVER. It's one of my all time favorites. Beautifully written. The main and side characters were just amazing. Besides Callum and Harper, I love Charlie and Cherry, they were witty and the best friends EVER. The ONE OF THE KIND. I would have loved to have a story just for Charlie and Cherry, they have their own story that I would have loved to read about. 

My verdict? 5 Stars Plus!

So guys don't miss out on Callum & Harper!

Night Road by Kristin Hannah

Synopsis 


For a mother, life comes down to a series of choices. 
To hold on…
To let go..
To forget…
To forgive…
Which road will you take? 

For eighteen years, Jude Farraday has put her children’s needs above her own, and it shows—her twins, Mia and Zach—are bright and happy teenagers. When Lexi Baill moves into their small, close knit community, no one is more welcoming than Jude. Lexi, a former foster child with a dark past, quickly becomes Mia’s best friend. Then Zach falls in love with Lexi and the three become inseparable. 

Jude does everything to keep her kids safe and on track for college. It has always been easy-- until senior year of high school. Suddenly she is at a loss. Nothing feels safe anymore; every time her kids leave the house, she worries about them. 

On a hot summer’s night her worst fears come true. One decision will change the course of their lives. In the blink of an eye, the Farraday family will be torn apart and Lexi will lose everything. In the years that follow, each must face the consequences of that single night and find a way to forget…or the courage to forgive.

NIGHT ROAD is vivid, emotionally complex novel that raises profound questions about motherhood, identity, love, and forgiveness. It is a luminous, heartbreaking novel that captures both the exquisite pain of loss and the stunning power of hope. This is Kristin Hannah at her very best, telling an unforgettable story about the longing for family, the resilience of the human heart, and the courage it takes to forgive the people we love. 

Review

What I can say now is that this book is FANTABULOUS, AMAZING AND MIND BLOWING. I love ALL of Kristin Hannah's books they are beautifully written and contains so much knowledge to learn from.  I have read almost all of her books getting close to be reading them all and waiting (in)patiently for her next book to blow me away. 

So guys I have a  longer review for this book that has my thoughts and what I loved about it but it contains so many spoilers so I am warning you only to scroll down after you read it and tell me what YOU think. 

WARNING, READ THIS REVIEW IF YOU HAVE READ THIS BOOK! 


Speechless. This book has made me speechless. I'm repeating myself because that's who exactly I feel this book has pulled my heartstrings. I love Zach, Lexi and Grace. (Obviously) At first I definitely have mixed feelings about Jude, like she was the mother who revolved her life around her kids, wanted the best for her children (which all parents want) but than I hated her for charging charges against Lexi, I hated how everyone thought of themselves that time. It was always about MIA and it was about her after she DIED, like for god sake keeping her IMMORTAL in their thoughts when someone dies is one thing but revolving it around your existence forgetting everyone around them. Poor Lexi. That poor girl was blamed for it when it wasn't her FAULT, I mean come on she was the only one who wasn't that drunk. My heart felt for Lexi when she had to give her baby away, she carried her baby for nine months only for her to be taken away and than she not being happy (Once again Mia takes the spotlight.) 


Zach had it so hard I wished he fought a little harder though, I know after losing his sister it was very hard for him but he only tried to keep his mother happy when all she did was neglect him. (One would think that after you lost one child you would keep the other in front of your eyes and shower them with lots of love, she didn't instead she wallowed in her own pain and didn't care for Miles pain, he lost his daughter too, Zach lost his sister to but he is holding it together).


Lexi lost her best friend, she has to carry the burden of being the driver, that girl had enough grief in life and she was blamed for the death, Jude told her she KILLED her daughter. Ughh, I wanted to punch her in the face! Can't you see that poor girl heart broken.  


Miles and Eve are the best. I loved them  both, they were the pillars for Zach and Lexi. 


This story is STUPENDOUS, FANTASTIC AND AMAZING. It's really hard to find such emotional books that are written so well and beautifully. This book made me think of so many things. We are human and we tend to make so many mistakes it takes a lot to own up to them and learn from them. 


I think many times what if Lexi didn't plead guilty would her sentence have been shorten would she have gone to prison. Maybe because of the way it went it was because it would have been easier on Lexi to move on, for her to have her happy ending? 


My Verdict? 5 PLUS STARS (5 stars don't cover it and 10 doesn't so I believe infinity number of stars since it has no bounds) :)