Seeing Julia

Synopsis 

Julia Hamilton was intent on building a life with Evan, looking forward instead of back and seemingly Evan gave her the world and a child. But then, he's tragically killed in a car accident. Julia's been in the after before and she knows this heartbreak too well and believes that death abducts the dying, but grief steals from those left behind. 

Desperate. Despondent. Julia questions her ability to really start over again. At Evan's funeral, she consumes equal parts of pain killers and martinis in order to escape the grief for a while. Then, she meets Jake Winston, Evan's best friend from Yale, which leads to an unforeseen connection that saves her life, but leaves her questioning everything else. 

Now, she battles guilt over Jake, grief over Evan, and questions from everyone. She must convince her psychiatrist that she wasn't trying to harm herself and answer his questions as to why she took the pills, just how perfect her marriage to Evan really was, and if she has really dealt with her past. From her close friends, she must answer their endless probing as to how she's really coping and what is she going to do with her life now. In the end, Julia must find the answers for herself-- confront her past, discover the truth about her marriage to Evan, and ultimately see herself, before she can see anyone else and find love again. 

Review 

Seeing Julia has me right from the first chapter. I loved the characters (all of them) they were all so realistic, there is no farce, they weren't perfect but they were amazing. Julia has been through so much ever since she was young and she lost so many people. She a very young widow with she young child battling with her grief and what she finds out after. Will she find love? Will she ever have a normal life? Will she be able to come out her grieving shell and become a mother to her child? Will she be able to prove to herself that she is fine? Or will she keep saying absolutely and hide her feelings, her fear and from herself?

They are so many questions but will she find the answers to them, than find out by reading Seeing Julia you won't regret it. It stupendously written and it flows just perfectly. Am I ever glad that I stumbled across from this, hell yeah! 

My Thoughts

This book actually teaches so much the title SEEING JULIA practically tells you the basic meaning sometimes you will see the same thing over and over again but do you really see it. Do you truly know who or what your seeing? Do you really know your friends, someone you keep meeting but pushing that someone away. Julia wanted some to really see her what killed her was the people who knew her died besides her friends who held her hand and helped her when she needed them the most. 

 So after reading this book I wrote a poem that just describes Julia and what she feels. 

Inner Demons

Passing through each day 
Blindly doing what needs to be done
Mechanically 
Smiling a fake smile 
Each time someone asks me 
Am I okay 
I reply with the brightest
fake sunny smile
ABSOLUTELY
Nothing is wrong
I am keeping it together
No one who knew me caught on
To message I had
Which was NO
I am not okay
I have to keep myself tact
If I break down
I will lose what little I have
I am waiting for someone to
See me
Who I really am
My imperfections
My fears
And still stay with me
FOREVER

A song that I was listening to while I was reading Seeing Julia it just felt right so here it is:

My verdict? 5 billion gazillion stars in the galaxy

Now I will go back and re-read my favorite parts, stick around for my favorite quotes.